ya... actually, just feel lyk blogging, dunno why too... ahahs. i cant control my emotions, as in mentally derrhs. maybe too much things happen. friendships etc. quite a big blow. i can be like, in a daze? and the next second, laugh lyk...lols. i cant control myself, even jiejie say i emo :'[ i dunn wann le. but maybe i just need tym. i wanna be my past. where im leading a carefree life...no probs no nothing. just satisfied with it, no vulgarities. listern to other ppl's probs and help them... but too naive i guess? hahas. this is the reality of the world i guess, too harsh. self esteem low, alot alot. im so emotionally hurt! why the fren i've been always count on willgive me some kinda...attitude? i mean, nt because he attitude me, is lyk, totally side someone and became another ppl. cus, he nvr speak to me tat way before... im so confuse! i've stop crying...but the tears is always there. i dunn wanna be so soft! but i really cant stop myself...haii... all the words came frm him, i will nvr ever forget. its my fault for scolding her, its my fault...but no ppl believe me, why none?! if i make clear, they say i push the blame again? she is weak?!im a human too! for God's sake~ i wanna shout, cant, the words are stuck in my throat. now i realise, even a one yr friendship can turn into a disaster, she changed her attitude, her everything, once she acknowledge my korkor to be her gan kor. T.T (maybe coincidence) nt im jealous or watever, but i just dunno how to describe the stupid feeling with me. its so heavy. now i can only see is hatred. i dun wan. i really dun wann. :[ i've changed too, to another ppl. have to learn to be more quiet now... i wanna die. cannot=.= my korkor and jiejie will skin me alive. live for the sake of myself or others? ans; not for myself, for my mother. my mother once told me, she cherished me as her daughter, so she asked me to cherish her as a mother before she sleeps. i told her; 我不想和你分开，因为我要永远做你的女儿。 mama laughs and keep quiet. x] i love my mama ne...no matter how she scold me. cause i can only have her as a mother in a lifetime. i wann throw my social life aside. i dun wann frens anymore. maybe being an introvert is actually nt a bad thing.
okok... no more emo emo. today go ply pool and bowling with cecilia and gladys jiejie. i manage to have a strike in bowling=.= HELLO! its like how long since the last tym i play bowling lah! kuku=.= pool i first tym ply still lose lahh...hoho. but fun... xD~ i wann audi again~ till nxt post! CIAO~
=Liing=
be strong! i can do it! jiayouus june!x] thank you to both my jiejie and ying for being there for me~ i love you guys!
ya... actually, just feel lyk blogging, dunno why too... ahahs. i cant control my emotions, as in mentally derrhs. maybe too much things happen. friendships etc. quite a big blow. i can be like, in a daze? and the next second, laugh lyk...lols. i cant control myself, even jiejie say i emo :'[ i dunn wann le. but maybe i just need tym. i wanna be my past. where im leading a carefree life...no probs no nothing. just satisfied with it, no vulgarities. listern to other ppl's probs and help them... but too naive i guess? hahas. this is the reality of the world i guess, too harsh. self esteem low, alot alot. im so emotionally hurt! why the fren i've been always count on willgive me some kinda...attitude? i mean, nt because he attitude me, is lyk, totally side someone and became another ppl. cus, he nvr speak to me tat way before... im so confuse! i've stop crying...but the tears is always there. i dunn wanna be so soft! but i really cant stop myself...haii... all the words came frm him, i will nvr ever forget. its my fault for scolding her, its my fault...but no ppl believe me, why none?! if i make clear, they say i push the blame again? she is weak?!im a human too! for God's sake~ i wanna shout, cant, the words are stuck in my throat. now i realise, even a one yr friendship can turn into a disaster, she changed her attitude, her everything, once she acknowledge my korkor to be her gan kor. T.T (maybe coincidence) nt im jealous or watever, but i just dunno how to describe the stupid feeling with me. its so heavy. now i can only see is hatred. i dun wan. i really dun wann. :[ i've changed too, to another ppl. have to learn to be more quiet now... i wanna die. cannot=.= my korkor and jiejie will skin me alive. live for the sake of myself or others? ans; not for myself, for my mother. my mother once told me, she cherished me as her daughter, so she asked me to cherish her as a mother before she sleeps. i told her; 我不想和你分开，因为我要永远做你的女儿。 mama laughs and keep quiet. x] i love my mama ne...no matter how she scold me. cause i can only have her as a mother in a lifetime. i wann throw my social life aside. i dun wann frens anymore. maybe being an introvert is actually nt a bad thing.
okok... no more emo emo. today go ply pool and bowling with cecilia and gladys jiejie. i manage to have a strike in bowling=.= HELLO! its like how long since the last tym i play bowling lah! kuku=.= pool i first tym ply still lose lahh...hoho. but fun... xD~ i wann audi again~ till nxt post! CIAO~
=Liing=
be strong! i can do it! jiayouus june!x] thank you to both my jiejie and ying for being there for me~ i love you guys!
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