Yuna Ito-Endless Story --------------------------------
alright, i knew its the damn second post of the day! but but but! cant blame me for being like so... wanting to blog so much right! =x but this post is for me to talk craps de lah! dun wann read also canns. LOL!
think, i've been thinking alot this few days... and, just Saturday. think is the 10 april ba. and yepp, its the same feeling again. the feeling of being left out. i knew i can depend on my own, when im being left out or something else. just like a year ago, when meeting spencer they all. tgt with celeste,adrain,fen,lesile and his girl. all cpl, except me.i was thinking now, what the fuck i wana follow? why am i so ridiculous?! and why, why do i allow people to walk through my door? as when i leave, everything she said, how do i feel? yes, left out.
but, this is different yeah. she's happy, with her family. she found them, but something is not right leh, she is very very happy leh. but i like why so sad ha? -.- she is my bestie leh. but when i see her walking with her sister, happily leh, as forth and back, i was walking either front or back.. listerning to songs, thinking, why the heck i feel left out?! i seems to be very jialet lor.
den as for another person, i dunno whether she knew this or not. i dun wanna give her up, nor i want things to turn out this way. i just hope, hope that i can tolerate more.
i thought i can stand strong and still, but it looks like im wrong. i tend to believe you, yes i do. and what do i gain? i dun need a repay, but, i dun think i deserve your comments. again and again, i told myself that you are angry, i take your words as anger. but it came out to be very harsh. i have totally no idea whats going on. also, i cant believe myself. and im asking again; who are you?
.p.s. I LOVE THE CULLEN FAMILY! ESPECIALLY DR.CULLEN AND EDWARD CULLEN! *SCREAMS* both of this guys totally rock my damn mind! i love them yes i do. but i love my laopo more!<3>
=Liing=
i think, i've found him. he has the same thinking as me. he made me smile. alot alot. (:
i've been asking myself quite alot of questions. i mean, i've been thinking quite alot...
Why am i not motivated in my studies?! and why the hell i dun give a shit to my O lvls?! and and, maybe, perhaps. im returning to chc.
i didn't know why, but. i felt God is helping me. again and again, he answered my questions. frm last time till now. dunno is qiao or wat lah.
why cant i just look forward?! why cant i give ppl a chance? why cant i let ppl walk through my door? alot alot. im not tearing, but my heart sank. im guilty? no. wat am i feeling now? who understands? why cant i accept ppl? why am i scared? why i fear? all this questions are enough for me to tio depression sia=.= gtg now. sch's tml. sucks=.=
=Liing=
i desperately needs your attention i need to feel your presence with me now.
i need to get you replaced, but it seems like so impossible. all you gave me was a day. and why the hell i am thinking of you? its been a year alrdy. and im still... pathetic? God, you answered my question... i thank you here. Amen.
since ages i listern this song~blah blah! gladys jiejie came and rot with me in my house=.= is very bored de lor! she wake me up for like one hour plus=.= sleepy...haii... ltr meeting ying. ltr she see my face will also say i emo lah. xi guan siol. i think she go ply aracde again... cycle=.= i wann meet hun cheng korkor! :[ his card no money again! aww... so much to talk about... nt ready to have a job. just wanna rot my life away... hai... hmmmm...pei fen talked to me in msn. i din reply her ne. she still calls me laopa. i mean, what's the use?! probs are coming one by one. im so tired. getting scolded by weiji too. bo bian, nt his prob so i ask him shut the fuck up=.= i know is bad, but i really dun wanna him to complicates the matter. since i've chose to leave.there is no more reason for me to be sweet and nice to cover the hole. i maybe a counselor, but counselor is a human too! (: so i decided to give myself some time and be myself again. hmmm... now den i realise my mama is very very bias...of course is bias towards my bro lah! but who cares?! haha. try to endure her lor=.= maybe numb le ba... that's why. hai...
I WANNA BE HAPPY!(: I WANNA BE HAPPY!(: I WANNA BE HAPPY!(: I WANNA BE HAPPY!(:
Yuna Ito-Endless Story --------------------------------
alright, i knew its the damn second post of the day! but but but! cant blame me for being like so... wanting to blog so much right! =x but this post is for me to talk craps de lah! dun wann read also canns. LOL!
think, i've been thinking alot this few days... and, just Saturday. think is the 10 april ba. and yepp, its the same feeling again. the feeling of being left out. i knew i can depend on my own, when im being left out or something else. just like a year ago, when meeting spencer they all. tgt with celeste,adrain,fen,lesile and his girl. all cpl, except me.i was thinking now, what the fuck i wana follow? why am i so ridiculous?! and why, why do i allow people to walk through my door? as when i leave, everything she said, how do i feel? yes, left out.
but, this is different yeah. she's happy, with her family. she found them, but something is not right leh, she is very very happy leh. but i like why so sad ha? -.- she is my bestie leh. but when i see her walking with her sister, happily leh, as forth and back, i was walking either front or back.. listerning to songs, thinking, why the heck i feel left out?! i seems to be very jialet lor.
den as for another person, i dunno whether she knew this or not. i dun wanna give her up, nor i want things to turn out this way. i just hope, hope that i can tolerate more.
i thought i can stand strong and still, but it looks like im wrong. i tend to believe you, yes i do. and what do i gain? i dun need a repay, but, i dun think i deserve your comments. again and again, i told myself that you are angry, i take your words as anger. but it came out to be very harsh. i have totally no idea whats going on. also, i cant believe myself. and im asking again; who are you?
.p.s. I LOVE THE CULLEN FAMILY! ESPECIALLY DR.CULLEN AND EDWARD CULLEN! *SCREAMS* both of this guys totally rock my damn mind! i love them yes i do. but i love my laopo more!<3>
=Liing=
i think, i've found him. he has the same thinking as me. he made me smile. alot alot. (:
i've been asking myself quite alot of questions. i mean, i've been thinking quite alot...
Why am i not motivated in my studies?! and why the hell i dun give a shit to my O lvls?! and and, maybe, perhaps. im returning to chc.
i didn't know why, but. i felt God is helping me. again and again, he answered my questions. frm last time till now. dunno is qiao or wat lah.
why cant i just look forward?! why cant i give ppl a chance? why cant i let ppl walk through my door? alot alot. im not tearing, but my heart sank. im guilty? no. wat am i feeling now? who understands? why cant i accept ppl? why am i scared? why i fear? all this questions are enough for me to tio depression sia=.= gtg now. sch's tml. sucks=.=
=Liing=
i desperately needs your attention i need to feel your presence with me now.
i need to get you replaced, but it seems like so impossible. all you gave me was a day. and why the hell i am thinking of you? its been a year alrdy. and im still... pathetic? God, you answered my question... i thank you here. Amen.
since ages i listern this song~blah blah! gladys jiejie came and rot with me in my house=.= is very bored de lor! she wake me up for like one hour plus=.= sleepy...haii... ltr meeting ying. ltr she see my face will also say i emo lah. xi guan siol. i think she go ply aracde again... cycle=.= i wann meet hun cheng korkor! :[ his card no money again! aww... so much to talk about... nt ready to have a job. just wanna rot my life away... hai... hmmmm...pei fen talked to me in msn. i din reply her ne. she still calls me laopa. i mean, what's the use?! probs are coming one by one. im so tired. getting scolded by weiji too. bo bian, nt his prob so i ask him shut the fuck up=.= i know is bad, but i really dun wanna him to complicates the matter. since i've chose to leave.there is no more reason for me to be sweet and nice to cover the hole. i maybe a counselor, but counselor is a human too! (: so i decided to give myself some time and be myself again. hmmm... now den i realise my mama is very very bias...of course is bias towards my bro lah! but who cares?! haha. try to endure her lor=.= maybe numb le ba... that's why. hai...
I WANNA BE HAPPY!(: I WANNA BE HAPPY!(: I WANNA BE HAPPY!(: I WANNA BE HAPPY!(:
