ok. officially announced that im so freaking bored! nvm nvm, say bout today~ okok, went to jp with fen. ya=.= she knocked her head to the wall while im playing with her=.= somehow guilty lah! see her face jiu sian diao=.= den she bomb me co thinggys. spencer thing etc. blah blah. sian lor. yep. spencer somehow is very overboard with his words. gonna talk with him when he's stable. anyway! we played parapara. her treat of cus. im broke== den night tym, dinner with parents. of cus, as a daughter of this family, im so fucking isolated. no tat im vulgar, maybe we just cant communicate. i can only communicate with my bro?which is sometimes only? mom? suan liao lah. dad? speechless.
life can be an enjoyment for me, and also fearful for me. things can change within seconds,im wondering when im dead. and who will appear in my funeral? maybe those ppl who shed tears for me are emotional ones. i still wanna live. but not in this house. i will den be contented. hmmm. since im so bored, lets have some argumentative topics. For instance, FRIENDS. which kind souls can answer me? wat are frens? i have frens that spoils my mood. and have frens who make my day. but?real frens? maybe is because i've seen enough. that's why im like so numb bout it.
take ying for example, she gt a cuddly cute god-dad. but once they argued, my hp will start ringing and i will hear sounds like crying. damn, im such a convience helper. not that im pissed or wat. seems like im being used. But for kinship, she rather be more selfish to it. maybe its because if her family. Hmm, hope she is not offended of what i've written on above. im just stating the truth. but if i can help her around, why nt? besides, helping ppl i care is such a nice thing to do in life. ying just called me and say; umm, june, i tell my elder sis says that i pei you to eat dinner. At first, i thought she was intending to eat supper with me. in the end, she continued; i was with daddy. can? i said; ok, as your wish. Nice fren aren't me?
maybe, im not as perfect as God,but im learning to be understanding.
peifen told me something which is quite unexpected from her moronic voice. ;Actually, i dun even want to contact all my social life peeps except for spenspen and celeste(came to be her cousin). nice? so i was wondering, why i helped her out from ______. yep. maybe, i cant bear to see her kena cheated? haiis. what a fren i have. disappointed you noe?
Weiji le, even he tell peifen to tell me off. saying that he dosen't need my help,asked me not to care...blahblah. still,he called me. and i decided to help him out. Nice? and i was still wondering why ying and juying will say that i treat things so cold-blooded?
Kianwei le? heard frm peifen say he dosen't even wants to see me or talked to me. Mighty thanks to that idiot who blacklisted me. now, everything changed and i cant even explain. he dosen't even bother me. 4 yrs of frenship, vanished. and i cant clear myself up. sad or wat? i dunno.
what i only noe is, ppl tend to changed. im human too. pls dun treat me like God and expect me to forgive everything.i need time. im only 16, i may talked alot of reasons. but, i still need to change to the better. im not someone who can be bombed everything.just like someone i know, helped people around him, in the end, what he get is just plain insult words, scoldings. why does things appear to be different even when we human are helping humans. and and! im not emoing. just some thoughts that i think just now. now that my family meals isn't as warm as before. its just plain meals i have everyday. no matter how much i've cried, things still turn out the same. And frens? no comments ba.im tired.mentally.
alrights. below message is for him.(: hope he know what im writing. pls,dun lie anymore. you will not gain anything from it. whats the use? you may be sensible, but not to us, you gave me enough trouble. if you still treat me as your gan jie, stop lying. you may have blacklisted me. But,i hope you will changed. you will gain nothing but troubles.i may have only know you for a year, but i have tried my best to be your listener and giving you advises. in the end? what did i get? frens apart? is this what you wan? you framed me up. lied to peifen. happy? if this is what you wan,den congratulations. now that i have lost a fren which i treasure alot.And im not as simple as what you think. Think before you act. dun be a jerk. wake up.
ok. officially announced that im so freaking bored! nvm nvm, say bout today~ okok, went to jp with fen. ya=.= she knocked her head to the wall while im playing with her=.= somehow guilty lah! see her face jiu sian diao=.= den she bomb me co thinggys. spencer thing etc. blah blah. sian lor. yep. spencer somehow is very overboard with his words. gonna talk with him when he's stable. anyway! we played parapara. her treat of cus. im broke== den night tym, dinner with parents. of cus, as a daughter of this family, im so fucking isolated. no tat im vulgar, maybe we just cant communicate. i can only communicate with my bro?which is sometimes only? mom? suan liao lah. dad? speechless.
life can be an enjoyment for me, and also fearful for me. things can change within seconds,im wondering when im dead. and who will appear in my funeral? maybe those ppl who shed tears for me are emotional ones. i still wanna live. but not in this house. i will den be contented. hmmm. since im so bored, lets have some argumentative topics. For instance, FRIENDS. which kind souls can answer me? wat are frens? i have frens that spoils my mood. and have frens who make my day. but?real frens? maybe is because i've seen enough. that's why im like so numb bout it.
take ying for example, she gt a cuddly cute god-dad. but once they argued, my hp will start ringing and i will hear sounds like crying. damn, im such a convience helper. not that im pissed or wat. seems like im being used. But for kinship, she rather be more selfish to it. maybe its because if her family. Hmm, hope she is not offended of what i've written on above. im just stating the truth. but if i can help her around, why nt? besides, helping ppl i care is such a nice thing to do in life. ying just called me and say; umm, june, i tell my elder sis says that i pei you to eat dinner. At first, i thought she was intending to eat supper with me. in the end, she continued; i was with daddy. can? i said; ok, as your wish. Nice fren aren't me?
maybe, im not as perfect as God,but im learning to be understanding.
peifen told me something which is quite unexpected from her moronic voice. ;Actually, i dun even want to contact all my social life peeps except for spenspen and celeste(came to be her cousin). nice? so i was wondering, why i helped her out from ______. yep. maybe, i cant bear to see her kena cheated? haiis. what a fren i have. disappointed you noe?
Weiji le, even he tell peifen to tell me off. saying that he dosen't need my help,asked me not to care...blahblah. still,he called me. and i decided to help him out. Nice? and i was still wondering why ying and juying will say that i treat things so cold-blooded?
Kianwei le? heard frm peifen say he dosen't even wants to see me or talked to me. Mighty thanks to that idiot who blacklisted me. now, everything changed and i cant even explain. he dosen't even bother me. 4 yrs of frenship, vanished. and i cant clear myself up. sad or wat? i dunno.
what i only noe is, ppl tend to changed. im human too. pls dun treat me like God and expect me to forgive everything.i need time. im only 16, i may talked alot of reasons. but, i still need to change to the better. im not someone who can be bombed everything.just like someone i know, helped people around him, in the end, what he get is just plain insult words, scoldings. why does things appear to be different even when we human are helping humans. and and! im not emoing. just some thoughts that i think just now. now that my family meals isn't as warm as before. its just plain meals i have everyday. no matter how much i've cried, things still turn out the same. And frens? no comments ba.im tired.mentally.
alrights. below message is for him.(: hope he know what im writing. pls,dun lie anymore. you will not gain anything from it. whats the use? you may be sensible, but not to us, you gave me enough trouble. if you still treat me as your gan jie, stop lying. you may have blacklisted me. But,i hope you will changed. you will gain nothing but troubles.i may have only know you for a year, but i have tried my best to be your listener and giving you advises. in the end? what did i get? frens apart? is this what you wan? you framed me up. lied to peifen. happy? if this is what you wan,den congratulations. now that i have lost a fren which i treasure alot.And im not as simple as what you think. Think before you act. dun be a jerk. wake up.
