DJ Steve-Nothing But A Dream -------------------------------------------
SIAN EH! DAMN THAT FLU PLUS THE ASS MIGRAIN! (watever=.= dunn even know how to spell=.=) din go schh today lor=.= sian diao.
denn go polyclinic see doc, registration alrdy need to wait for tat damn one and a half hr=.= long lor, denn huncheng korkor pei me, :D nt so sian ma, denn tat doc gimme the headache plus fever de medicine=.= gimme 2 somemore sia. jialet=.=
tml frankie daddy de bbq lehh, at sembawang leh! -lazy- just go lor, at night nia. hahs!
now frm chest area to toe all muscle ache sia=.= thanks to mr.chia lah! give us do the nafa thinggy. 5 stations! wa lau ehhhh~! i chiong all sia. only incline pull up deprove by 7,sit up deprove by 2(bt i still get tat 5 points!) den standing broad jump, suan leh=.= that one if i can get one point is a damn miracle! sit and reach improved by 3cm! lol! lastly for shuttle run, eh, improve by 1 sec lor=.= no biggie lah. chey! but i really envy ppl who's hand is long and leg also tall de ppl lor! like jiale's one lor, his hand is damn long lah=.= his a guy! lols. obviously his hand must be long! peifen de hand also long! why mine so short?! T-T if im tall, maybe my standing broad jump can improve hor? suan liao lah! damn my height man! freaking 156cm(i sustain this damn height for like 2 yrs?!) ass de lor=.= nxt week is 2.4 run! yay~! i prefer jogging lah! chey~ tiredd, medicine, sleep! night all! :DDD
tired lah=.= gt sci practical today. not successful, i asked alot of ppl how to do. Like, Ain,YenTing,Taufik,Halidah... so difficult lorTT swear i hate physic man. goshh.
went queenway after that! alot of guys clothes leh there. hahs! cann go shop shop... cheap too!~(: ate curry chicken-$3 nice!:D went with peifen. o ya, Twilight...hehs! nt bad(: read till chapter 15 within a day... if i no nid study in class, i can finish the whole book within a day luhhs! hohos! gonna finish all the saga alrdy! hahas! cant wait.
but travel too much place alrdy... tired~ D= gonna complete maomao's homework today and slp early! :D mug mug and mug!=]
o ya, gonna admit something...
AHH TAN! I SWEAR I HATE YOU TO THE CORE MAN! ( you know who you are!:D) >=]
=DDD! went Sentosa just now with korkor and ahhliang! xp SO SO SO FUNNY! we talk crap alot lor. but very tired ne...=[ from siloso beach, walked to palawan beach, after that to tanjong beach. wa lau! Sentosa de beach is so much cleaner den East Coast Park de lor! hai... took alot of photos... buwahahas. so funn lah.
hmmm, tml is Stephy de birthdayy!(: dunno how to celebrate for her le... hai... have to discuss with siaoeh they all liao... hohos, haven even start on my ta. *die* cross finger tat the stupid msn is working lah! cant even open my hotmaiL! nb! go off!~ -lazy to post again-
hmm, so long din post lerrhs. anyways, update now(:
been depress for the past few days. thanks for all the cheering words frm friends! (: im much much more better now. hahas.
xiaohei is out of icu le, but if within one month his tail still cannot move denn have to remove le... sian diao. XIAOHEI! MUST BE STRONG OK? WHIP EURR TAIL AGAIN! =[
i miss him...aww! TT school has nt been tat stressful but i dun understand why the whole bloody teachers keep stressing on us. fucktards== butbut! i actually noe how to do my maths man! woohoooo~ i know is easy but i fail maths ma. now i think science is more difficult den maths liao!== double shag. o yaa! i miss yeefei,kevin,huncheng,gladys jiejie, stephy and gladys! lol! so many ppl i miss. too long din see them abit nt used to it. especially yeefei. she crazy one==! haha! o ya, went back to sjab today. i swear man! this year's the most sacrastic phrase frm Sir dingjun! i greet him; Good Afternoon sir. he replied; WAH! STAFF! i how long din see you liao?!! now finally can see your face! infront of the juniors. wth lahh! tat idiot. make me paiisehh== watever~ i only din return to camp nia. is no juniors ask me to go de ok! nabei! ==~ watever. hahas. okok, sjab changed alot, hmmm, quite chaotic== den kianwei dunwanna go back. dunno why? so umm, i also abit shag liao. still have to go back. (lyk i gt a choice) fuck sia. i would'nt even go back man! thanks to the bloody 75% cca points. who cares anyway, bloody sch, bloody rules. first offence din go, call parents. wtf siias?!! i mean, you think some parents even allow their children to attend cca where some cca like sjab is so damn torturing?!! use brains lah!== now jvss sch's rules is so over, as in, too much! simply tooooo muchhh! no ppl can tahan in this sch de lor. wonder which fucktard came out with all this school rules==! AND the stupid sch canteen de food is damn expensive, i understand now is economy crisis, nidda be so expesive de ma?! wapiangs. think money very easy earn mehh?!== ok, have been nagging. audition today very lag. so dun wanna use anymore. == if nt my blood boils. maybe too tired today. went to Singapore Poly after schh. their open house. hmmm, nt bad, TOO BIG. 15 mins walk to each end side of the campus!(imagine, how big man==) and is brisk walk. but lecturers there are all so friendly! =D hmm, maybe i should take up the course name, Applied Drama and Psychology. Reality Check;DRAMA=NO ACTING! there, if nt ppl will think i go for acting class! lols. umm,the girl told me say the lecturers are all psychologist! o my tian! XD~ must have earn alot! BUT! nidda go university to complete the damn masters. den can be a psychologist.== fuck... hai...still gt 9 more months for me to think think. T.T maybe FLY to Tamasek to study Nutritionist! :D very far le! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~! see first lah! lol! now O lvl first! XD~ o ya, speaking of Nutritionist. TAT TEACHER MRS PHILLIP! DAMMIT! she asked me the second time whether i really score an distintion for her FnN theory plus Practical. i said yes! she give me tat kuku face== den i say nid me giv you see result slip? she say dun nid! LOL~ so funny lah her. but really gt so many ppl look down on me ahT.T o my tian... Os have to strive really hard! :D i wann back my coursework lahhhhhhhhhh! damn tat Cambridge! when can fly back my papers to let me see them?! T.T aww, okok, just heard frm mummy dear saying tat xiaohei have speedyyyyy recovery! :DDD! YAY! im sooooo happpyyyyyyyyyy~! nownow waiting for his tail to move! hohoho! XIAOHEI! JIAYOU NE! JIEJIE WAITING FOR YOU TO RECOVER HOR! DEN WE CAN FIGHT FOR BALL BALL AGAIN! =DDD! my baobei. quickly recover ok? dun wanna see you hurt so much. i even gt eurr photos! :D hahaha! this prove how i miss you man! but today no ppl go visit xiaohei. dunno he bored or nt== tml i get the ball to giv him ply! buwahahaha! =D~ kkays...gotta go...XD~ maybe changing a blogksin soon...still pending== lol! i wanna go Ngee Ann poly de open hseeee! heard there very the big! o.o haha! CIAO~
ahahs! today was sure in a good mood. but after that. bad mood again! anyway, summary of today!(:
woke up by noon, den go facial, 50 bucks gone like that== denn afterwhich, when to imm to meet up with korkor,ah liang,siaoeh and celeste. i was hungry. but they just ate. so i alone go subway to eat. have my breakfast,lunch and dinner eaten together. lols. 9.60 bucks, quite cheap. filling too!(: denn celeste go off soon after, to meet her boyboy. denn korkor return to sch for night class. denn left with me, siaoeh and ah liang. after that i found out that i left my Cross necklace at the facial there. i was a bit crazy by then, cus i love the necklace like heaven and hell. ah liang help me ranksack my bag! cannot find denn i call mama to ask the facial aunty! denn i drop the necklace there. heng! if that necklace lost. i will tio depression. thanks ah liang!=D denn we go buy the crepe thinggy to taste taste, cus none of us eaten before. i end up paying 85 cents only! lols. nt much money left. but gt 20% discounts ma! so 3.85 bucks. expensive lor!!! haikkado derrhs lerrhs. see nice nice, wahpiangs! the full cream alot! o.o cannot eat much, will die. is milk lor! nt sweet derrhs! so eaten, i bought lychee juice, shared. after which, no where to go,decided to go mini toons see see, somehow we go to mini toons to crazy! lol~siaoeh bought a pig for korkor and a monkey for ah liang! the monkey look like ah liang ma! denn piggy represent korkor! XD~ (actually is i wann buy pig for korkor derrhs, den ah liang suggest that the pig plushie cuter! lol)=he was a part of our plan! buwahahaha!*grins*=
den saw cindy and jacqueline. so as so, around 8 plus, gladys and jairus dismiss frm work. so talk talk. gladys waiting for stephy to dismiss frm work. denn i left imm to meet ying. and in bus 333. coincidence, saw yeefei they all. quite shock but say hi. denn i smsed yeefei saying that she very noisy in bus== she reply i was the one who is shouting==!!! lols. denn meet up with ying. chat awhile den go ying hse, talked with her aunt. lol! her aunt miss me man! XD~ denn go home find mama talk bout the facial thinggy. talked to wendy jiejie bout her family stuff, very complicated! denn go pei ying go market to buy food for her aunt. O YAA! TML IS YING'S AUNT 76th BIRTHDAY!=DDD~ celebrate with her tml~ =D
so and so, ate and find korkor. talked to siaoeh,korkor and ah liang. abit bu shuang. cus no ppl feel like replying me. abit fuckup. denn went home... but yay! i took the monkey photo with ah liang! hahahahaha! gonna post them up when im free! their uber cute! is the monkey cute! nt ah liang! XD!
din get to meet stephy!D= i miss her lahh! haha~ anyway, tml count down, so might see her tml! =DD! kkays, since mood kena thrash, no harm chionging audi! byebye!=D
=Liing=
since we are nt even frens, no point holding on the idea when its being thrash then him. its trust that fails you.
ok. officially announced that im so freaking bored! nvm nvm, say bout today~ okok, went to jp with fen. ya=.= she knocked her head to the wall while im playing with her=.= somehow guilty lah! see her face jiu sian diao=.= den she bomb me co thinggys. spencer thing etc. blah blah. sian lor. yep. spencer somehow is very overboard with his words. gonna talk with him when he's stable. anyway! we played parapara. her treat of cus. im broke== den night tym, dinner with parents. of cus, as a daughter of this family, im so fucking isolated. no tat im vulgar, maybe we just cant communicate. i can only communicate with my bro?which is sometimes only? mom? suan liao lah. dad? speechless.
life can be an enjoyment for me, and also fearful for me. things can change within seconds,im wondering when im dead. and who will appear in my funeral? maybe those ppl who shed tears for me are emotional ones. i still wanna live. but not in this house. i will den be contented. hmmm. since im so bored, lets have some argumentative topics. For instance, FRIENDS. which kind souls can answer me? wat are frens? i have frens that spoils my mood. and have frens who make my day. but?real frens? maybe is because i've seen enough. that's why im like so numb bout it.
take ying for example, she gt a cuddly cute god-dad. but once they argued, my hp will start ringing and i will hear sounds like crying. damn, im such a convience helper. not that im pissed or wat. seems like im being used. But for kinship, she rather be more selfish to it. maybe its because if her family. Hmm, hope she is not offended of what i've written on above. im just stating the truth. but if i can help her around, why nt? besides, helping ppl i care is such a nice thing to do in life. ying just called me and say; umm, june, i tell my elder sis says that i pei you to eat dinner. At first, i thought she was intending to eat supper with me. in the end, she continued; i was with daddy. can? i said; ok, as your wish. Nice fren aren't me?
maybe, im not as perfect as God,but im learning to be understanding.
peifen told me something which is quite unexpected from her moronic voice. ;Actually, i dun even want to contact all my social life peeps except for spenspen and celeste(came to be her cousin). nice? so i was wondering, why i helped her out from ______. yep. maybe, i cant bear to see her kena cheated? haiis. what a fren i have. disappointed you noe?
Weiji le, even he tell peifen to tell me off. saying that he dosen't need my help,asked me not to care...blahblah. still,he called me. and i decided to help him out. Nice? and i was still wondering why ying and juying will say that i treat things so cold-blooded?
Kianwei le? heard frm peifen say he dosen't even wants to see me or talked to me. Mighty thanks to that idiot who blacklisted me. now, everything changed and i cant even explain. he dosen't even bother me. 4 yrs of frenship, vanished. and i cant clear myself up. sad or wat? i dunno.
what i only noe is, ppl tend to changed. im human too. pls dun treat me like God and expect me to forgive everything.i need time. im only 16, i may talked alot of reasons. but, i still need to change to the better. im not someone who can be bombed everything.just like someone i know, helped people around him, in the end, what he get is just plain insult words, scoldings. why does things appear to be different even when we human are helping humans. and and! im not emoing. just some thoughts that i think just now. now that my family meals isn't as warm as before. its just plain meals i have everyday. no matter how much i've cried, things still turn out the same. And frens? no comments ba.im tired.mentally.
alrights. below message is for him.(: hope he know what im writing. pls,dun lie anymore. you will not gain anything from it. whats the use? you may be sensible, but not to us, you gave me enough trouble. if you still treat me as your gan jie, stop lying. you may have blacklisted me. But,i hope you will changed. you will gain nothing but troubles.i may have only know you for a year, but i have tried my best to be your listener and giving you advises. in the end? what did i get? frens apart? is this what you wan? you framed me up. lied to peifen. happy? if this is what you wan,den congratulations. now that i have lost a fren which i treasure alot.And im not as simple as what you think. Think before you act. dun be a jerk. wake up.
yepp... tat Jack Russell go to another new owner luhhs! T.T i miss him lah. even though he only live in my hse for one day~ haha! anyways~ he's cute!:D haha. might upload his pics nxt tym... hmmmmmmm. im so bored~ tml go see wendy! sian. tio gan by her. fuck=.= suan liao luhhs! must stay happy! i wann xiao hei! T-T so long din see him! D: i wanna audi ne. maybe go in awhile! x] dunn let korkor sleep. hohohohohos! today so high! =DD dunno why also. maybe ply with dog ply until siao liao! :s k lahh. im so tired. lazy to type liao! tml baa! CIAO! =]]
DJ Steve-Nothing But A Dream -------------------------------------------
SIAN EH! DAMN THAT FLU PLUS THE ASS MIGRAIN! (watever=.= dunn even know how to spell=.=) din go schh today lor=.= sian diao.
denn go polyclinic see doc, registration alrdy need to wait for tat damn one and a half hr=.= long lor, denn huncheng korkor pei me, :D nt so sian ma, denn tat doc gimme the headache plus fever de medicine=.= gimme 2 somemore sia. jialet=.=
tml frankie daddy de bbq lehh, at sembawang leh! -lazy- just go lor, at night nia. hahs!
now frm chest area to toe all muscle ache sia=.= thanks to mr.chia lah! give us do the nafa thinggy. 5 stations! wa lau ehhhh~! i chiong all sia. only incline pull up deprove by 7,sit up deprove by 2(bt i still get tat 5 points!) den standing broad jump, suan leh=.= that one if i can get one point is a damn miracle! sit and reach improved by 3cm! lol! lastly for shuttle run, eh, improve by 1 sec lor=.= no biggie lah. chey! but i really envy ppl who's hand is long and leg also tall de ppl lor! like jiale's one lor, his hand is damn long lah=.= his a guy! lols. obviously his hand must be long! peifen de hand also long! why mine so short?! T-T if im tall, maybe my standing broad jump can improve hor? suan liao lah! damn my height man! freaking 156cm(i sustain this damn height for like 2 yrs?!) ass de lor=.= nxt week is 2.4 run! yay~! i prefer jogging lah! chey~ tiredd, medicine, sleep! night all! :DDD
tired lah=.= gt sci practical today. not successful, i asked alot of ppl how to do. Like, Ain,YenTing,Taufik,Halidah... so difficult lorTT swear i hate physic man. goshh.
went queenway after that! alot of guys clothes leh there. hahs! cann go shop shop... cheap too!~(: ate curry chicken-$3 nice!:D went with peifen. o ya, Twilight...hehs! nt bad(: read till chapter 15 within a day... if i no nid study in class, i can finish the whole book within a day luhhs! hohos! gonna finish all the saga alrdy! hahas! cant wait.
but travel too much place alrdy... tired~ D= gonna complete maomao's homework today and slp early! :D mug mug and mug!=]
o ya, gonna admit something...
AHH TAN! I SWEAR I HATE YOU TO THE CORE MAN! ( you know who you are!:D) >=]
=DDD! went Sentosa just now with korkor and ahhliang! xp SO SO SO FUNNY! we talk crap alot lor. but very tired ne...=[ from siloso beach, walked to palawan beach, after that to tanjong beach. wa lau! Sentosa de beach is so much cleaner den East Coast Park de lor! hai... took alot of photos... buwahahas. so funn lah.
hmmm, tml is Stephy de birthdayy!(: dunno how to celebrate for her le... hai... have to discuss with siaoeh they all liao... hohos, haven even start on my ta. *die* cross finger tat the stupid msn is working lah! cant even open my hotmaiL! nb! go off!~ -lazy to post again-
hmm, so long din post lerrhs. anyways, update now(:
been depress for the past few days. thanks for all the cheering words frm friends! (: im much much more better now. hahas.
xiaohei is out of icu le, but if within one month his tail still cannot move denn have to remove le... sian diao. XIAOHEI! MUST BE STRONG OK? WHIP EURR TAIL AGAIN! =[
i miss him...aww! TT school has nt been tat stressful but i dun understand why the whole bloody teachers keep stressing on us. fucktards== butbut! i actually noe how to do my maths man! woohoooo~ i know is easy but i fail maths ma. now i think science is more difficult den maths liao!== double shag. o yaa! i miss yeefei,kevin,huncheng,gladys jiejie, stephy and gladys! lol! so many ppl i miss. too long din see them abit nt used to it. especially yeefei. she crazy one==! haha! o ya, went back to sjab today. i swear man! this year's the most sacrastic phrase frm Sir dingjun! i greet him; Good Afternoon sir. he replied; WAH! STAFF! i how long din see you liao?!! now finally can see your face! infront of the juniors. wth lahh! tat idiot. make me paiisehh== watever~ i only din return to camp nia. is no juniors ask me to go de ok! nabei! ==~ watever. hahas. okok, sjab changed alot, hmmm, quite chaotic== den kianwei dunwanna go back. dunno why? so umm, i also abit shag liao. still have to go back. (lyk i gt a choice) fuck sia. i would'nt even go back man! thanks to the bloody 75% cca points. who cares anyway, bloody sch, bloody rules. first offence din go, call parents. wtf siias?!! i mean, you think some parents even allow their children to attend cca where some cca like sjab is so damn torturing?!! use brains lah!== now jvss sch's rules is so over, as in, too much! simply tooooo muchhh! no ppl can tahan in this sch de lor. wonder which fucktard came out with all this school rules==! AND the stupid sch canteen de food is damn expensive, i understand now is economy crisis, nidda be so expesive de ma?! wapiangs. think money very easy earn mehh?!== ok, have been nagging. audition today very lag. so dun wanna use anymore. == if nt my blood boils. maybe too tired today. went to Singapore Poly after schh. their open house. hmmm, nt bad, TOO BIG. 15 mins walk to each end side of the campus!(imagine, how big man==) and is brisk walk. but lecturers there are all so friendly! =D hmm, maybe i should take up the course name, Applied Drama and Psychology. Reality Check;DRAMA=NO ACTING! there, if nt ppl will think i go for acting class! lols. umm,the girl told me say the lecturers are all psychologist! o my tian! XD~ must have earn alot! BUT! nidda go university to complete the damn masters. den can be a psychologist.== fuck... hai...still gt 9 more months for me to think think. T.T maybe FLY to Tamasek to study Nutritionist! :D very far le! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~! see first lah! lol! now O lvl first! XD~ o ya, speaking of Nutritionist. TAT TEACHER MRS PHILLIP! DAMMIT! she asked me the second time whether i really score an distintion for her FnN theory plus Practical. i said yes! she give me tat kuku face== den i say nid me giv you see result slip? she say dun nid! LOL~ so funny lah her. but really gt so many ppl look down on me ahT.T o my tian... Os have to strive really hard! :D i wann back my coursework lahhhhhhhhhh! damn tat Cambridge! when can fly back my papers to let me see them?! T.T aww, okok, just heard frm mummy dear saying tat xiaohei have speedyyyyy recovery! :DDD! YAY! im sooooo happpyyyyyyyyyy~! nownow waiting for his tail to move! hohoho! XIAOHEI! JIAYOU NE! JIEJIE WAITING FOR YOU TO RECOVER HOR! DEN WE CAN FIGHT FOR BALL BALL AGAIN! =DDD! my baobei. quickly recover ok? dun wanna see you hurt so much. i even gt eurr photos! :D hahaha! this prove how i miss you man! but today no ppl go visit xiaohei. dunno he bored or nt== tml i get the ball to giv him ply! buwahahaha! =D~ kkays...gotta go...XD~ maybe changing a blogksin soon...still pending== lol! i wanna go Ngee Ann poly de open hseeee! heard there very the big! o.o haha! CIAO~
ahahs! today was sure in a good mood. but after that. bad mood again! anyway, summary of today!(:
woke up by noon, den go facial, 50 bucks gone like that== denn afterwhich, when to imm to meet up with korkor,ah liang,siaoeh and celeste. i was hungry. but they just ate. so i alone go subway to eat. have my breakfast,lunch and dinner eaten together. lols. 9.60 bucks, quite cheap. filling too!(: denn celeste go off soon after, to meet her boyboy. denn korkor return to sch for night class. denn left with me, siaoeh and ah liang. after that i found out that i left my Cross necklace at the facial there. i was a bit crazy by then, cus i love the necklace like heaven and hell. ah liang help me ranksack my bag! cannot find denn i call mama to ask the facial aunty! denn i drop the necklace there. heng! if that necklace lost. i will tio depression. thanks ah liang!=D denn we go buy the crepe thinggy to taste taste, cus none of us eaten before. i end up paying 85 cents only! lols. nt much money left. but gt 20% discounts ma! so 3.85 bucks. expensive lor!!! haikkado derrhs lerrhs. see nice nice, wahpiangs! the full cream alot! o.o cannot eat much, will die. is milk lor! nt sweet derrhs! so eaten, i bought lychee juice, shared. after which, no where to go,decided to go mini toons see see, somehow we go to mini toons to crazy! lol~siaoeh bought a pig for korkor and a monkey for ah liang! the monkey look like ah liang ma! denn piggy represent korkor! XD~ (actually is i wann buy pig for korkor derrhs, den ah liang suggest that the pig plushie cuter! lol)=he was a part of our plan! buwahahaha!*grins*=
den saw cindy and jacqueline. so as so, around 8 plus, gladys and jairus dismiss frm work. so talk talk. gladys waiting for stephy to dismiss frm work. denn i left imm to meet ying. and in bus 333. coincidence, saw yeefei they all. quite shock but say hi. denn i smsed yeefei saying that she very noisy in bus== she reply i was the one who is shouting==!!! lols. denn meet up with ying. chat awhile den go ying hse, talked with her aunt. lol! her aunt miss me man! XD~ denn go home find mama talk bout the facial thinggy. talked to wendy jiejie bout her family stuff, very complicated! denn go pei ying go market to buy food for her aunt. O YAA! TML IS YING'S AUNT 76th BIRTHDAY!=DDD~ celebrate with her tml~ =D
so and so, ate and find korkor. talked to siaoeh,korkor and ah liang. abit bu shuang. cus no ppl feel like replying me. abit fuckup. denn went home... but yay! i took the monkey photo with ah liang! hahahahaha! gonna post them up when im free! their uber cute! is the monkey cute! nt ah liang! XD!
din get to meet stephy!D= i miss her lahh! haha~ anyway, tml count down, so might see her tml! =DD! kkays, since mood kena thrash, no harm chionging audi! byebye!=D
=Liing=
since we are nt even frens, no point holding on the idea when its being thrash then him. its trust that fails you.
ok. officially announced that im so freaking bored! nvm nvm, say bout today~ okok, went to jp with fen. ya=.= she knocked her head to the wall while im playing with her=.= somehow guilty lah! see her face jiu sian diao=.= den she bomb me co thinggys. spencer thing etc. blah blah. sian lor. yep. spencer somehow is very overboard with his words. gonna talk with him when he's stable. anyway! we played parapara. her treat of cus. im broke== den night tym, dinner with parents. of cus, as a daughter of this family, im so fucking isolated. no tat im vulgar, maybe we just cant communicate. i can only communicate with my bro?which is sometimes only? mom? suan liao lah. dad? speechless.
life can be an enjoyment for me, and also fearful for me. things can change within seconds,im wondering when im dead. and who will appear in my funeral? maybe those ppl who shed tears for me are emotional ones. i still wanna live. but not in this house. i will den be contented. hmmm. since im so bored, lets have some argumentative topics. For instance, FRIENDS. which kind souls can answer me? wat are frens? i have frens that spoils my mood. and have frens who make my day. but?real frens? maybe is because i've seen enough. that's why im like so numb bout it.
take ying for example, she gt a cuddly cute god-dad. but once they argued, my hp will start ringing and i will hear sounds like crying. damn, im such a convience helper. not that im pissed or wat. seems like im being used. But for kinship, she rather be more selfish to it. maybe its because if her family. Hmm, hope she is not offended of what i've written on above. im just stating the truth. but if i can help her around, why nt? besides, helping ppl i care is such a nice thing to do in life. ying just called me and say; umm, june, i tell my elder sis says that i pei you to eat dinner. At first, i thought she was intending to eat supper with me. in the end, she continued; i was with daddy. can? i said; ok, as your wish. Nice fren aren't me?
maybe, im not as perfect as God,but im learning to be understanding.
peifen told me something which is quite unexpected from her moronic voice. ;Actually, i dun even want to contact all my social life peeps except for spenspen and celeste(came to be her cousin). nice? so i was wondering, why i helped her out from ______. yep. maybe, i cant bear to see her kena cheated? haiis. what a fren i have. disappointed you noe?
Weiji le, even he tell peifen to tell me off. saying that he dosen't need my help,asked me not to care...blahblah. still,he called me. and i decided to help him out. Nice? and i was still wondering why ying and juying will say that i treat things so cold-blooded?
Kianwei le? heard frm peifen say he dosen't even wants to see me or talked to me. Mighty thanks to that idiot who blacklisted me. now, everything changed and i cant even explain. he dosen't even bother me. 4 yrs of frenship, vanished. and i cant clear myself up. sad or wat? i dunno.
what i only noe is, ppl tend to changed. im human too. pls dun treat me like God and expect me to forgive everything.i need time. im only 16, i may talked alot of reasons. but, i still need to change to the better. im not someone who can be bombed everything.just like someone i know, helped people around him, in the end, what he get is just plain insult words, scoldings. why does things appear to be different even when we human are helping humans. and and! im not emoing. just some thoughts that i think just now. now that my family meals isn't as warm as before. its just plain meals i have everyday. no matter how much i've cried, things still turn out the same. And frens? no comments ba.im tired.mentally.
alrights. below message is for him.(: hope he know what im writing. pls,dun lie anymore. you will not gain anything from it. whats the use? you may be sensible, but not to us, you gave me enough trouble. if you still treat me as your gan jie, stop lying. you may have blacklisted me. But,i hope you will changed. you will gain nothing but troubles.i may have only know you for a year, but i have tried my best to be your listener and giving you advises. in the end? what did i get? frens apart? is this what you wan? you framed me up. lied to peifen. happy? if this is what you wan,den congratulations. now that i have lost a fren which i treasure alot.And im not as simple as what you think. Think before you act. dun be a jerk. wake up.
yepp... tat Jack Russell go to another new owner luhhs! T.T i miss him lah. even though he only live in my hse for one day~ haha! anyways~ he's cute!:D haha. might upload his pics nxt tym... hmmmmmmm. im so bored~ tml go see wendy! sian. tio gan by her. fuck=.= suan liao luhhs! must stay happy! i wann xiao hei! T-T so long din see him! D: i wanna audi ne. maybe go in awhile! x] dunn let korkor sleep. hohohohohos! today so high! =DD dunno why also. maybe ply with dog ply until siao liao! :s k lahh. im so tired. lazy to type liao! tml baa! CIAO! =]]
