Kelly Clarkson-Hear Me ----------------------------------
sian sian! ahliang daddy says i take photo look different=.=! lols, of cus lah. chey~ anyway. went to makan dinner with ahliang daddy. he refuse to pei me go Halo=.= wa lau eh~ he say i last min luhhs! kuku. tml sjab leh. sian. haiya, tml den talk lah! byebye!
Yuna Ito-Endless Story ------------------------------
currently in schh... FnN lesson luhhs== ytd din update, so might as well update todayy! today cooked Cheese Marcoroni~ nt nice at all! __ No lah~ is the cooking nt nice. have yet to try grped with karling=.= but she so funnyyyyy! she claim that she dunno how to cook. in e end cut meat...den her cutting way is like butchering on person lor?! HAHA! but shes funny lahh
anyway, update bout ytd... went to huncheng korkor hse. yeefei also. makan together. she bought stingray! but is me and hun cheng korkor help her buy one=.= SO YEEFEI! YOU BETTER DUN OFFEND ME IF NT I BUT SHYT FOR YOU NXT TYM! HAHA! XD! SO YUMMMMMY~ but=.= i see how the way yeefei handles chillis is VERY VERY scary=.= lols, maybe she might just eat chilli as a meal can le, no rice needed. lols!
den do homework at their house, den yeefei go watch her L word! i didn't know she watch this kinda show. lols. den i audi awhile...~ home after that. hohos! quite lame lah=.= homework is like pilling up... mrs maslinda is crazy! keep asking us to do comprehension. straight after Os lvl maybe i will murder her. =.=! crazy ass
watever~ mao mao also ask me do COMPO NB!~ 600 WORDS! and is last min one. heard frm kangli says if today din do the newpaper thinggy, STAY BACK?! NNB!~!!! i dunwannnnn! finally today no lesson nothing lor. i will kill maomao man!=.= i hate sec 5 education system lorrhs. hai... after Os lvl. you will nt see me in jurong liao. anyhow go outside ton alrdy=.= lols! k lah~ off i go. last min karling tell me gt eng PASSAGE B NIDDA COMPLETE?! nbcb=.= fcuk the teacher!
=Liing=
maybe, i have to set up a plan where all the teacher vanish=.= hmm...pending. -grins-
Weather has been damn FUCKING HOT! na bei! like public suana man=.= sucks. considering whether to have the need to buy portable fans to sch or nt. since mrs maslinda agree! hahs!
headache worst! Mrs maslinda told me to cut down on my salt intake. and yepp, trying to control! =D can de lah... i nt like ahhliang laopa. (i think? he can drink soya sauce nxt tym=.=) LOL! maybe lah! =x let him see this he will niao me i guess... lols~ mai care!
o yaa! nidda thanks; YEEFEI AND HUNCHENG! for their strawberry Chocolates! <3 LAOPO AND XIAOLAOPO for their roses! SHUXUAN,PEIFEN AND HUIZHEN! for theors chocolates! :DDD i love it! thanks guys! eurr e best! :D
after sch. saw lots of ppl... like, kianwei, jiahong,huncheng korkor,Yeefei!,weilin and weiji. hahahas, so re nao. yee fei says she meeting her girlfs. denn huncheng korkor follow us all the way~ got maths remidial after that. ok, i gotta admit, Mr Wong's mouth is so=.= he said this;( after remidial) quickly go home! raining soon!~ i was like, wahh! dun anyhow say! later really rains. IN E END?! *KA BOOM!* THUNDER!>>>RAIN?!!! im like=.= see lah?! rain liao! arghh~ bu its quite funny lah! lols. den jp after that. went arcade chiong ddr. para para nt working.abit fed up... with ying. den ate long john sliver with weilin, jiawei,ying and huncheng. ya, saw ying's brother's fren...lols, i found that guy familiar, den i call ying, she smile and say his name! i laugh man! lols, God knows he's working there! =D paiseh lor, hahas. hmm, went home, actually wanna do maths. mummy did something i was damn upset bout it. so did nth, maybe sleeping early tonight. homework has been pilling up. anyways, now laming with yeefei in msn. -sot one- lols, gotat go~ byebye!
Toy Box-The Sailor Song -----------------------------------
Hello Blogger!(: today shall be my 150th post! XD~ nice job right? a long post too. And of course, i shall remember today CAUSE;
I PASS MY FREAKING GCE 'N' LVL!!!!!! cut short, im promoted to SECONDARY 5~ GOD! I LOVE YOU FOR BLESSING ME THROUGHOUT!=D so so soooo happy! and to think im still refering to the ite booklet to think which courses to go== guess i can burn tat booklet away! lol~ but nxt yr cannot slack liao! JIIAYOUUS! XD~ i mean, i finally pass my Math! like for 7 yrs i have failed my maths! now den i believe in efforts! =DDD! HERE ARE THE PEOPLE I WANNA THANK FOR MAKING MY MATHS PASS!; meiying,Mrs Ong(for like forcing me to do hw),Ms Chua(: BIG BIG BIG THANKS! =DD and and! my combined humanities! MR ZAILANI! XD~ he always like carry tat stern face of his to class! but he is friendly one ok! dunn misunderstood him! he's a nice nice guy~ XD~ ya, my chinese! although i gt a 4, but but! finally my chinese pass too! THANKS MAOMAO! <3 you are my favorite teacher! XD~ (he gt a cute face ok! XD~) and and! wanna thanks MY GANS! namely, laopo,gladys,cecilia,(although she wanna me pei her go ite==),to encourage me to study=D and and! peifen,weilin,juying, we chiong our N lvl together! =DD! Although, some failed like, Kian,Weilin,Yeefei and juying(heard one) BUT! dunn give up okkays? all the best and you all can do better!=D cheer up! :D
and im like so happy, nxt year kang they all and zhen also can go sec 5! XD! tat means my FnN class is saved! hoohoo! ya! to accumulate! Daddy,Cecilia,Sean and kelvin OWN ME A TREAT! BUWAHAHAHAHAHA~ XD~ although sean,cecilia and kelvin is like so reluctant to treat me! I DUN CARE! treat means treat! XD~ mummy giving me cashy! yay! XD~ gladys jiejie say she gt no tym,plus she is sick! T.T but but! she did sms me! hahahahaha! AND AND! JingYi Jiejie! i told her tat i promote! she so so so happy! XD~ didn't know so many ppl still care bout me man! aww! how touched! k lahh, since my N lvl i can make it, GCE 'O' LVL 2009! IM COMING TO KILL YOU MAN! WATCH OUT! xD~ Shall nt slack anymore(: o yaa! korkor treat me to dessert today!(((: so so so happy! and i manage to take a pic with him! XDXDXD~ and he share his a little bit of facts with me bout his girlgirl! so funny! was like laughin! more funny is my korkor tell me how ah liang cook at home! i laugh until i choke man! _|_ SO FUNNY~~~ its like so nt edible! and his mama still say nice. o my tian~ and and! jun an zhu kor! haha, stress me frm the start of the yr! =D k lahh, shall share my joy with other ppl~ ton tonight! XD~
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Nothing can express how i feel now! im so glad~
Juying; you may have called me bout your stuff. im not lying to anyone, nor i did not say tat i din trust you, you are betrayed by your own trust. in the first place, if you are not truthful to yourself, how you expect me to trust you? ask yourself wat you have done first ok? for what you have done to harm anyone out there? i dun care, you even betrayed me, just to giv me troubles, i dun give a damn. im only curious why you are doing all this stupid things? you may have seen my blog, so what? things have alrdy happen. you still dun wanna admit, what i can do?! given your tone i can alrdy feel that you are so not happy with me. then? how you wanna me to react? i dun even want to care. since kian alrdy talked back to me,im ok and thanks to you, i've learned to forgive and forget. im so sorry to spoil your plot. and to think that you would ever tell me that i dun trust you. hey, wake up will you? this is the reality of the world, if you expect me to trust you, gimme me your damn trust and your real self. im so sick and tired of your behavior, even fen tell me, i dun believe it ok? Wake up lah for heaven's sake. if you treat me as a friend, pls, be truthful to yourself and the actions that you have made. everything pays a price. you are lucky enough to escape this prob, but not the nxt one. you can lie all you want and not leaving an albi, but dun you know something? the more you lie, the more loopholes you will give. tell you the fact, its not that i dun trust you, you din give me a damn chance to trust you. take it or leave it, i believe that you know how to think, dun disappoint me again. if you really think i dun worth to be your fren, you are always welcome to leave. thanks for eveything(:
JUNE!WAKE UP! DUN SO EMO!_|_ yaya. suddenly. nvm nvm. im crazy anyway~ APPLE! YOU LOOK CUTE IN EURR FRINGE OK?XD~ like a 6 yrs old girl girl anyway! help with gladys and asyikin with their proms WOOOAH! gladys look simply; GLAMOROUS! Asikiyn look pretty(: CHIO SEHHS! okok, gonna go out. update ltr! (:
Elva Hsiao-他和她的故事 ----------------------------------
hmmmm,going Glad jeijie hse ltr, so mean tym. short post! ytd go K BOX! to celebrate vivian jie de advance birthday. me and mei juan in the end so high! lol~ but wendy jiejie and jiefu go first,cus jiefu live very far==! sadded. but in the end small thinggy happen. abit angry. so nvm. (in actual fact im very angry for the whole day thanks to them) kuku tang! but nvm~ over le. lols! o ya! ytd talked with spenspen,2 words. HE CHANGED MAN! I TELL YA! IM SO SHOCKED! true ennuff== he's like so...=.= things turned out to be the unexpected. yaya! and peifen really go ask Lesile whether he wanna go to the co concert=.=wtf. i think she gt haywire in her brain ya noe? whatever~ im not gonna entertain him anyway~humphh! o yaa~ went bugis ytd!>< bought one gadiators and a white long skirt. nt bad. maybe cus im short, so gotta wear something long== but have to alther le! too long liao! LOLS~ anyway, im very sad about this news. :
its about the first singaporean who dies under the terrorist attack! fucktards man! she is like so poor thing! kena shot 2 parts. head and abdomen area.T.T sadd le!so innocent. hmm! so angry with the terrorist! world undergoing economy crisis still kill here and there, stupid or kuku in brain?!=.= hai! k luhhs! not gonna blog=.= no mood.
=Liing=
Never pin hope on something unrealistic too much.It will only gain disappointments.
ok. officially announced that im so freaking bored! nvm nvm, say bout today~ okok, went to jp with fen. ya=.= she knocked her head to the wall while im playing with her=.= somehow guilty lah! see her face jiu sian diao=.= den she bomb me co thinggys. spencer thing etc. blah blah. sian lor. yep. spencer somehow is very overboard with his words. gonna talk with him when he's stable. anyway! we played parapara. her treat of cus. im broke== den night tym, dinner with parents. of cus, as a daughter of this family, im so fucking isolated. no tat im vulgar, maybe we just cant communicate. i can only communicate with my bro?which is sometimes only? mom? suan liao lah. dad? speechless.
life can be an enjoyment for me, and also fearful for me. things can change within seconds,im wondering when im dead. and who will appear in my funeral? maybe those ppl who shed tears for me are emotional ones. i still wanna live. but not in this house. i will den be contented. hmmm. since im so bored, lets have some argumentative topics. For instance, FRIENDS. which kind souls can answer me? wat are frens? i have frens that spoils my mood. and have frens who make my day. but?real frens? maybe is because i've seen enough. that's why im like so numb bout it.
take ying for example, she gt a cuddly cute god-dad. but once they argued, my hp will start ringing and i will hear sounds like crying. damn, im such a convience helper. not that im pissed or wat. seems like im being used. But for kinship, she rather be more selfish to it. maybe its because if her family. Hmm, hope she is not offended of what i've written on above. im just stating the truth. but if i can help her around, why nt? besides, helping ppl i care is such a nice thing to do in life. ying just called me and say; umm, june, i tell my elder sis says that i pei you to eat dinner. At first, i thought she was intending to eat supper with me. in the end, she continued; i was with daddy. can? i said; ok, as your wish. Nice fren aren't me?
maybe, im not as perfect as God,but im learning to be understanding.
peifen told me something which is quite unexpected from her moronic voice. ;Actually, i dun even want to contact all my social life peeps except for spenspen and celeste(came to be her cousin). nice? so i was wondering, why i helped her out from ______. yep. maybe, i cant bear to see her kena cheated? haiis. what a fren i have. disappointed you noe?
Weiji le, even he tell peifen to tell me off. saying that he dosen't need my help,asked me not to care...blahblah. still,he called me. and i decided to help him out. Nice? and i was still wondering why ying and juying will say that i treat things so cold-blooded?
Kianwei le? heard frm peifen say he dosen't even wants to see me or talked to me. Mighty thanks to that idiot who blacklisted me. now, everything changed and i cant even explain. he dosen't even bother me. 4 yrs of frenship, vanished. and i cant clear myself up. sad or wat? i dunno.
what i only noe is, ppl tend to changed. im human too. pls dun treat me like God and expect me to forgive everything.i need time. im only 16, i may talked alot of reasons. but, i still need to change to the better. im not someone who can be bombed everything.just like someone i know, helped people around him, in the end, what he get is just plain insult words, scoldings. why does things appear to be different even when we human are helping humans. and and! im not emoing. just some thoughts that i think just now. now that my family meals isn't as warm as before. its just plain meals i have everyday. no matter how much i've cried, things still turn out the same. And frens? no comments ba.im tired.mentally.
alrights. below message is for him.(: hope he know what im writing. pls,dun lie anymore. you will not gain anything from it. whats the use? you may be sensible, but not to us, you gave me enough trouble. if you still treat me as your gan jie, stop lying. you may have blacklisted me. But,i hope you will changed. you will gain nothing but troubles.i may have only know you for a year, but i have tried my best to be your listener and giving you advises. in the end? what did i get? frens apart? is this what you wan? you framed me up. lied to peifen. happy? if this is what you wan,den congratulations. now that i have lost a fren which i treasure alot.And im not as simple as what you think. Think before you act. dun be a jerk. wake up.
LOLS! today so fun... go to uncle victor's daughter first month... ok lahh... da baby gurl so cute!:D den after tat... off to fen hse!xD~! her bro's daughter is one yr old! woahhh... coincidence eh?lols! den night go pei ying... so funny... we talk until 11 plus... den blahh blahh... aww...today so busy! ytd bought 2 skinny jeans? omg lahh... i so fat==~ fen ask me buy.. i bo shorts somemore... sian diao... den buy lor==! buy black and jeans blue... black colour makes me think of someone==! sianns... tml bake cakes..with gladys... lols...fun day! her hse far le...lazy==~ early in da morning have to wake up... and i haven tell me mother... piang!== hope tml is a fine day baa...ahahs... short post ba! night peeps!x]
=Liing=
8 months 3 days left and counting and counting...
sometyms i really was wondering why im waiting for you yet you din even realise...
Kelly Clarkson-Hear Me ----------------------------------
sian sian! ahliang daddy says i take photo look different=.=! lols, of cus lah. chey~ anyway. went to makan dinner with ahliang daddy. he refuse to pei me go Halo=.= wa lau eh~ he say i last min luhhs! kuku. tml sjab leh. sian. haiya, tml den talk lah! byebye!
Yuna Ito-Endless Story ------------------------------
currently in schh... FnN lesson luhhs== ytd din update, so might as well update todayy! today cooked Cheese Marcoroni~ nt nice at all! __ No lah~ is the cooking nt nice. have yet to try grped with karling=.= but she so funnyyyyy! she claim that she dunno how to cook. in e end cut meat...den her cutting way is like butchering on person lor?! HAHA! but shes funny lahh
anyway, update bout ytd... went to huncheng korkor hse. yeefei also. makan together. she bought stingray! but is me and hun cheng korkor help her buy one=.= SO YEEFEI! YOU BETTER DUN OFFEND ME IF NT I BUT SHYT FOR YOU NXT TYM! HAHA! XD! SO YUMMMMMY~ but=.= i see how the way yeefei handles chillis is VERY VERY scary=.= lols, maybe she might just eat chilli as a meal can le, no rice needed. lols!
den do homework at their house, den yeefei go watch her L word! i didn't know she watch this kinda show. lols. den i audi awhile...~ home after that. hohos! quite lame lah=.= homework is like pilling up... mrs maslinda is crazy! keep asking us to do comprehension. straight after Os lvl maybe i will murder her. =.=! crazy ass
watever~ mao mao also ask me do COMPO NB!~ 600 WORDS! and is last min one. heard frm kangli says if today din do the newpaper thinggy, STAY BACK?! NNB!~!!! i dunwannnnn! finally today no lesson nothing lor. i will kill maomao man!=.= i hate sec 5 education system lorrhs. hai... after Os lvl. you will nt see me in jurong liao. anyhow go outside ton alrdy=.= lols! k lah~ off i go. last min karling tell me gt eng PASSAGE B NIDDA COMPLETE?! nbcb=.= fcuk the teacher!
=Liing=
maybe, i have to set up a plan where all the teacher vanish=.= hmm...pending. -grins-
Weather has been damn FUCKING HOT! na bei! like public suana man=.= sucks. considering whether to have the need to buy portable fans to sch or nt. since mrs maslinda agree! hahs!
headache worst! Mrs maslinda told me to cut down on my salt intake. and yepp, trying to control! =D can de lah... i nt like ahhliang laopa. (i think? he can drink soya sauce nxt tym=.=) LOL! maybe lah! =x let him see this he will niao me i guess... lols~ mai care!
o yaa! nidda thanks; YEEFEI AND HUNCHENG! for their strawberry Chocolates! <3 LAOPO AND XIAOLAOPO for their roses! SHUXUAN,PEIFEN AND HUIZHEN! for theors chocolates! :DDD i love it! thanks guys! eurr e best! :D
after sch. saw lots of ppl... like, kianwei, jiahong,huncheng korkor,Yeefei!,weilin and weiji. hahahas, so re nao. yee fei says she meeting her girlfs. denn huncheng korkor follow us all the way~ got maths remidial after that. ok, i gotta admit, Mr Wong's mouth is so=.= he said this;( after remidial) quickly go home! raining soon!~ i was like, wahh! dun anyhow say! later really rains. IN E END?! *KA BOOM!* THUNDER!>>>RAIN?!!! im like=.= see lah?! rain liao! arghh~ bu its quite funny lah! lols. den jp after that. went arcade chiong ddr. para para nt working.abit fed up... with ying. den ate long john sliver with weilin, jiawei,ying and huncheng. ya, saw ying's brother's fren...lols, i found that guy familiar, den i call ying, she smile and say his name! i laugh man! lols, God knows he's working there! =D paiseh lor, hahas. hmm, went home, actually wanna do maths. mummy did something i was damn upset bout it. so did nth, maybe sleeping early tonight. homework has been pilling up. anyways, now laming with yeefei in msn. -sot one- lols, gotat go~ byebye!
Toy Box-The Sailor Song -----------------------------------
Hello Blogger!(: today shall be my 150th post! XD~ nice job right? a long post too. And of course, i shall remember today CAUSE;
I PASS MY FREAKING GCE 'N' LVL!!!!!! cut short, im promoted to SECONDARY 5~ GOD! I LOVE YOU FOR BLESSING ME THROUGHOUT!=D so so soooo happy! and to think im still refering to the ite booklet to think which courses to go== guess i can burn tat booklet away! lol~ but nxt yr cannot slack liao! JIIAYOUUS! XD~ i mean, i finally pass my Math! like for 7 yrs i have failed my maths! now den i believe in efforts! =DDD! HERE ARE THE PEOPLE I WANNA THANK FOR MAKING MY MATHS PASS!; meiying,Mrs Ong(for like forcing me to do hw),Ms Chua(: BIG BIG BIG THANKS! =DD and and! my combined humanities! MR ZAILANI! XD~ he always like carry tat stern face of his to class! but he is friendly one ok! dunn misunderstood him! he's a nice nice guy~ XD~ ya, my chinese! although i gt a 4, but but! finally my chinese pass too! THANKS MAOMAO! <3 you are my favorite teacher! XD~ (he gt a cute face ok! XD~) and and! wanna thanks MY GANS! namely, laopo,gladys,cecilia,(although she wanna me pei her go ite==),to encourage me to study=D and and! peifen,weilin,juying, we chiong our N lvl together! =DD! Although, some failed like, Kian,Weilin,Yeefei and juying(heard one) BUT! dunn give up okkays? all the best and you all can do better!=D cheer up! :D
and im like so happy, nxt year kang they all and zhen also can go sec 5! XD! tat means my FnN class is saved! hoohoo! ya! to accumulate! Daddy,Cecilia,Sean and kelvin OWN ME A TREAT! BUWAHAHAHAHAHA~ XD~ although sean,cecilia and kelvin is like so reluctant to treat me! I DUN CARE! treat means treat! XD~ mummy giving me cashy! yay! XD~ gladys jiejie say she gt no tym,plus she is sick! T.T but but! she did sms me! hahahahaha! AND AND! JingYi Jiejie! i told her tat i promote! she so so so happy! XD~ didn't know so many ppl still care bout me man! aww! how touched! k lahh, since my N lvl i can make it, GCE 'O' LVL 2009! IM COMING TO KILL YOU MAN! WATCH OUT! xD~ Shall nt slack anymore(: o yaa! korkor treat me to dessert today!(((: so so so happy! and i manage to take a pic with him! XDXDXD~ and he share his a little bit of facts with me bout his girlgirl! so funny! was like laughin! more funny is my korkor tell me how ah liang cook at home! i laugh until i choke man! _|_ SO FUNNY~~~ its like so nt edible! and his mama still say nice. o my tian~ and and! jun an zhu kor! haha, stress me frm the start of the yr! =D k lahh, shall share my joy with other ppl~ ton tonight! XD~
=Liing=
Nothing can express how i feel now! im so glad~
Juying; you may have called me bout your stuff. im not lying to anyone, nor i did not say tat i din trust you, you are betrayed by your own trust. in the first place, if you are not truthful to yourself, how you expect me to trust you? ask yourself wat you have done first ok? for what you have done to harm anyone out there? i dun care, you even betrayed me, just to giv me troubles, i dun give a damn. im only curious why you are doing all this stupid things? you may have seen my blog, so what? things have alrdy happen. you still dun wanna admit, what i can do?! given your tone i can alrdy feel that you are so not happy with me. then? how you wanna me to react? i dun even want to care. since kian alrdy talked back to me,im ok and thanks to you, i've learned to forgive and forget. im so sorry to spoil your plot. and to think that you would ever tell me that i dun trust you. hey, wake up will you? this is the reality of the world, if you expect me to trust you, gimme me your damn trust and your real self. im so sick and tired of your behavior, even fen tell me, i dun believe it ok? Wake up lah for heaven's sake. if you treat me as a friend, pls, be truthful to yourself and the actions that you have made. everything pays a price. you are lucky enough to escape this prob, but not the nxt one. you can lie all you want and not leaving an albi, but dun you know something? the more you lie, the more loopholes you will give. tell you the fact, its not that i dun trust you, you din give me a damn chance to trust you. take it or leave it, i believe that you know how to think, dun disappoint me again. if you really think i dun worth to be your fren, you are always welcome to leave. thanks for eveything(:
JUNE!WAKE UP! DUN SO EMO!_|_ yaya. suddenly. nvm nvm. im crazy anyway~ APPLE! YOU LOOK CUTE IN EURR FRINGE OK?XD~ like a 6 yrs old girl girl anyway! help with gladys and asyikin with their proms WOOOAH! gladys look simply; GLAMOROUS! Asikiyn look pretty(: CHIO SEHHS! okok, gonna go out. update ltr! (:
Elva Hsiao-他和她的故事 ----------------------------------
hmmmm,going Glad jeijie hse ltr, so mean tym. short post! ytd go K BOX! to celebrate vivian jie de advance birthday. me and mei juan in the end so high! lol~ but wendy jiejie and jiefu go first,cus jiefu live very far==! sadded. but in the end small thinggy happen. abit angry. so nvm. (in actual fact im very angry for the whole day thanks to them) kuku tang! but nvm~ over le. lols! o ya! ytd talked with spenspen,2 words. HE CHANGED MAN! I TELL YA! IM SO SHOCKED! true ennuff== he's like so...=.= things turned out to be the unexpected. yaya! and peifen really go ask Lesile whether he wanna go to the co concert=.=wtf. i think she gt haywire in her brain ya noe? whatever~ im not gonna entertain him anyway~humphh! o yaa~ went bugis ytd!>< bought one gadiators and a white long skirt. nt bad. maybe cus im short, so gotta wear something long== but have to alther le! too long liao! LOLS~ anyway, im very sad about this news. :
its about the first singaporean who dies under the terrorist attack! fucktards man! she is like so poor thing! kena shot 2 parts. head and abdomen area.T.T sadd le!so innocent. hmm! so angry with the terrorist! world undergoing economy crisis still kill here and there, stupid or kuku in brain?!=.= hai! k luhhs! not gonna blog=.= no mood.
=Liing=
Never pin hope on something unrealistic too much.It will only gain disappointments.
ok. officially announced that im so freaking bored! nvm nvm, say bout today~ okok, went to jp with fen. ya=.= she knocked her head to the wall while im playing with her=.= somehow guilty lah! see her face jiu sian diao=.= den she bomb me co thinggys. spencer thing etc. blah blah. sian lor. yep. spencer somehow is very overboard with his words. gonna talk with him when he's stable. anyway! we played parapara. her treat of cus. im broke== den night tym, dinner with parents. of cus, as a daughter of this family, im so fucking isolated. no tat im vulgar, maybe we just cant communicate. i can only communicate with my bro?which is sometimes only? mom? suan liao lah. dad? speechless.
life can be an enjoyment for me, and also fearful for me. things can change within seconds,im wondering when im dead. and who will appear in my funeral? maybe those ppl who shed tears for me are emotional ones. i still wanna live. but not in this house. i will den be contented. hmmm. since im so bored, lets have some argumentative topics. For instance, FRIENDS. which kind souls can answer me? wat are frens? i have frens that spoils my mood. and have frens who make my day. but?real frens? maybe is because i've seen enough. that's why im like so numb bout it.
take ying for example, she gt a cuddly cute god-dad. but once they argued, my hp will start ringing and i will hear sounds like crying. damn, im such a convience helper. not that im pissed or wat. seems like im being used. But for kinship, she rather be more selfish to it. maybe its because if her family. Hmm, hope she is not offended of what i've written on above. im just stating the truth. but if i can help her around, why nt? besides, helping ppl i care is such a nice thing to do in life. ying just called me and say; umm, june, i tell my elder sis says that i pei you to eat dinner. At first, i thought she was intending to eat supper with me. in the end, she continued; i was with daddy. can? i said; ok, as your wish. Nice fren aren't me?
maybe, im not as perfect as God,but im learning to be understanding.
peifen told me something which is quite unexpected from her moronic voice. ;Actually, i dun even want to contact all my social life peeps except for spenspen and celeste(came to be her cousin). nice? so i was wondering, why i helped her out from ______. yep. maybe, i cant bear to see her kena cheated? haiis. what a fren i have. disappointed you noe?
Weiji le, even he tell peifen to tell me off. saying that he dosen't need my help,asked me not to care...blahblah. still,he called me. and i decided to help him out. Nice? and i was still wondering why ying and juying will say that i treat things so cold-blooded?
Kianwei le? heard frm peifen say he dosen't even wants to see me or talked to me. Mighty thanks to that idiot who blacklisted me. now, everything changed and i cant even explain. he dosen't even bother me. 4 yrs of frenship, vanished. and i cant clear myself up. sad or wat? i dunno.
what i only noe is, ppl tend to changed. im human too. pls dun treat me like God and expect me to forgive everything.i need time. im only 16, i may talked alot of reasons. but, i still need to change to the better. im not someone who can be bombed everything.just like someone i know, helped people around him, in the end, what he get is just plain insult words, scoldings. why does things appear to be different even when we human are helping humans. and and! im not emoing. just some thoughts that i think just now. now that my family meals isn't as warm as before. its just plain meals i have everyday. no matter how much i've cried, things still turn out the same. And frens? no comments ba.im tired.mentally.
alrights. below message is for him.(: hope he know what im writing. pls,dun lie anymore. you will not gain anything from it. whats the use? you may be sensible, but not to us, you gave me enough trouble. if you still treat me as your gan jie, stop lying. you may have blacklisted me. But,i hope you will changed. you will gain nothing but troubles.i may have only know you for a year, but i have tried my best to be your listener and giving you advises. in the end? what did i get? frens apart? is this what you wan? you framed me up. lied to peifen. happy? if this is what you wan,den congratulations. now that i have lost a fren which i treasure alot.And im not as simple as what you think. Think before you act. dun be a jerk. wake up.
LOLS! today so fun... go to uncle victor's daughter first month... ok lahh... da baby gurl so cute!:D den after tat... off to fen hse!xD~! her bro's daughter is one yr old! woahhh... coincidence eh?lols! den night go pei ying... so funny... we talk until 11 plus... den blahh blahh... aww...today so busy! ytd bought 2 skinny jeans? omg lahh... i so fat==~ fen ask me buy.. i bo shorts somemore... sian diao... den buy lor==! buy black and jeans blue... black colour makes me think of someone==! sianns... tml bake cakes..with gladys... lols...fun day! her hse far le...lazy==~ early in da morning have to wake up... and i haven tell me mother... piang!== hope tml is a fine day baa...ahahs... short post ba! night peeps!x]
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8 months 3 days left and counting and counting...
sometyms i really was wondering why im waiting for you yet you din even realise...
